People Make Mistakes

People make mistakes. I have made so many I think that they would count past infinity. I had liked this guy since the beginning of time. Like 3rd grade. But, I was holding on to a dream that isn't mine anymore. He was the last part of me that still felt like home. He was the only one who had watched me go through my whole life, from place to place. But, I blew it, because it was obvious that I liked him. Why would I have liked him, I do not know. He has a girlfriend. It is so wrong to like a guy who has a girlfriend, especially when it is obvious that they are in love. I am so happy that they are, and look like they are the cutest couple on the planet. I don't know if that boy has been reading this blog or not, but I am hoping that he does so that he knows how sorry I truly am. I am a silly teenage girl who makes silly mistakes and overreact to everything. I always get my mouth in trouble, I always say sorry and I always get into the middle of things. Not this time. I am done being there.
I just read a book called the Secret Life of Bees. Fantastic book. But, reading it made me realize that I do not need a guy to make me happy. I just need to live my life and live it to the fullest. We only have today, so I should not be worrying about tomorrow, unless I have a PreCalc test. THEN I need to worry. =)
I have so many wonderful things and why I never felt like that was enough I am not sure. I am only human. Well, I AM sure now and I am going to start changing my whole way of thinking to God's will and not my own. Because when God works, it turns out far better than I would ever imagine, and I need to keep reminding myself this.

Driving Misadventures

Driving is so scary. Why can't we just teleport ourselves from place to place? That would be so much easier. So far...

-I have almost been hit by a massive tractor-trailer truck at an intersection
-Watch another tractor-trailer truck almost tip over
-Run over a curb
-Pull out in front of a logging truck
-Was squished by two cars while trying to parallel park

But that is okay.... because I am alive to write about it. And so is the Drivers Ed car. The bad thing is that I am only halfway through my driving hours.

My mom refuses to get in the car with me until I have 20 hours logged. I have a feeling that even then she won't get in the car with me!! =P  A woman I haven't heard from since I was 7 called my grandmother asking for my name (because she couldn't remember it.) She asked if I was okay and felt the need to pray for me. That spooked her so now she REALLY won't get in a car with me.

Please pray for me. I would like to still be living by the end of this course!!

By the way, who reads this blog? If you want to comment or text me that'd be great. I just want to know if I should keep this going.

CAMP!!!!

Today is my last day at home before I go about twenty yards down the hill to camp! This is my first time being a camp counselor. I really hope that it goes well.

Trash, Robots and Berklee (in pictures)

Wow! It has been so long since I have last updated this blog. Sorry everyone! So much has been going on lately that I haven't had time to write. But tonight, I do.

School has been going really well. My favorite class is band, even though I really can't stand my teacher. I just love music. We are doing a piece called "Mash the Trash" which is a percussion piece. He needed some cymbals, so, I set aside my flute for a while and became a percussionist... something I swore I would never be! But it has been a good time and I am making new friends.

This is a part of our robotics team presenting our robot to the school board. For our first competition, we got 12 out of 20. Which, for our little thing, I think is pretty good!!! For our scrimmage, we got 2nd!!! Unfortunately, it didn't count for anything... But we had a wonderful time!

This is me, Hannah and Wendy at Berklee College of Music. We went to the International Folk Festival. It was absolutely incredible!!! I am so glad that I went, and I can't wait to go next year! It was just so uplifiting.

Robots? Tennis? Homework???/

I didn't have any homework tonight. It was soooo boring!!!!! Now don't get me wrong, I hate doing homework but I also like having something to do. I have been talking to all my friends tonight; thanks everyone for keeping me company!

My teacher asked me if I was interested in doing a robotics team? I have no idea. Rachel loves it. I think I would too. It might even be too late to start a robotics club though. If so, Hannah wants me to do tennis. I think that might be fun. =) We will see. God will open the right door I know. 

Car Accident

Dad got in a car accident and Dalvay is totalled =( She was always my favorite car. We grew up together. Dad is okay and apparently well enough to drive tomorrow. I am so glad that he is okay. I know that I may not have had a Dad tonight and I thank God that he is okay.