People Make Mistakes

People make mistakes. I have made so many I think that they would count past infinity. I had liked this guy since the beginning of time. Like 3rd grade. But, I was holding on to a dream that isn't mine anymore. He was the last part of me that still felt like home. He was the only one who had watched me go through my whole life, from place to place. But, I blew it, because it was obvious that I liked him. Why would I have liked him, I do not know. He has a girlfriend. It is so wrong to like a guy who has a girlfriend, especially when it is obvious that they are in love. I am so happy that they are, and look like they are the cutest couple on the planet. I don't know if that boy has been reading this blog or not, but I am hoping that he does so that he knows how sorry I truly am. I am a silly teenage girl who makes silly mistakes and overreact to everything. I always get my mouth in trouble, I always say sorry and I always get into the middle of things. Not this time. I am done being there.
I just read a book called the Secret Life of Bees. Fantastic book. But, reading it made me realize that I do not need a guy to make me happy. I just need to live my life and live it to the fullest. We only have today, so I should not be worrying about tomorrow, unless I have a PreCalc test. THEN I need to worry. =)
I have so many wonderful things and why I never felt like that was enough I am not sure. I am only human. Well, I AM sure now and I am going to start changing my whole way of thinking to God's will and not my own. Because when God works, it turns out far better than I would ever imagine, and I need to keep reminding myself this.